Goodbye First Love

by Radiant Heart

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record out soon on strictly no capital letters / a new label . songs by chris and celia. Stephen Wragg on strings . recorded by chris and celia in various places. mastered by joe at subsequent mastering.

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released April 1, 2017

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Track Name: Romance of The Century
This goes back
To a time
Not too long ago
But feels like
Well I guess
It was a very long time
Or at least a time
That is definitely
In the past
But does not really feel
Like it's in the past
Because it is there every day
and at night
It is not in the past at all
But alive
In this dream.


I'd fall in
To a
Time when I
Could have
Called you up
Just to
Hear you anytime

And I would
Never
Have hung up
And not
Have gone shy
At that
Time when I
Couldn't quite tell wrong from what is right

Could you ever think of me being around
after what's happened now
After the romance of the Century
It was tributary
to the set and scene
to the memory
Track Name: Goodbye First Love
In the immanence of time
Walking out beyond the lights
In the darkness
Cars all parked up

In the immanence of time
Walking out beyond the lights of something
Couldn't quite make out your eyes
But I could not forget them if I wanted
Does it ever lose its weight
No it only grows and becomes godly
Does it ever leave the stage
No but It won't always be a problem

We will share it
Blood and breakfast
someone else's
Parents' mattress

Goodbye first Love

Say goodbye
Track Name: Burning
To think it could have been historically important and agleam
Spite of the tired and unquiet on the day you watched me leave

Could I not try to hear it out
Opened before us like roads in a tunnel
Not even that could save us now
You spoke with Sureness like
we were in trouble

I just grew right up
You couldn't stress enough
I've been all that you've loved
there are things I'm not proud of

Could I not try to hear it out
Opened before us like roads in a tunnel
Not even that could save us now
You spoke with sureness i
really was humbled

So I
came back inside
Let it to die
At the end of the night
Track Name: Chain and Candle
You washed your hands of it
Should I have gone back and pled
Threatened to die for it
Or was it already dead

Already dead
Gone back and pled
Pleaded myself
Back into bed

We had no argument
There was no trouble ahead
Love is encirclement
You could not help seeing red

All that you've said
Left And forgave
Consider these doubts
Already dead

I was afraid
Track Name: My Heart A Hard Drive (Love Poem)
Still I dream of you
On Most Nights
Something in the room
Receiving you
Still the only love
This lifetime
Something in the doom
Believes in you
Track Name: The Wide Open Nothing
I showed up
Late on a Friday
I could not say if there were things
That you
Remembered about me
The whole crusade
Watched it rewinding
If you aren't writing about love
You have
Not Watched it dying

To leave it there so readily
To leave it up to fate just like a child
In it all
I am still in love
Like I was that winter
a decade after but
I don't think that I can
Do this anymore

There is just so much in me
That I don't want to focus on directly for too long
There is too much
Of Great importance
In the antecedent
Of the wide open
Nothing that's to come

Please do not leave me here
Track Name: June '09
the deal that we made
the end of the summer
when we packed the car
away from your mother's
the house that was sold
i'm endlessly haunted
its still in the frame
all your belongings
into the car
and drove from your mothers
i couldn't have known
the endless discomfort
of longing too late
for longer than average
you're still in the frame
front of the narrative
now i go to work
and sleep in the covers
and i'm not alone
though not quite recovered
from all of the nights
the hue of your bedroom
so bold and precise
the sound in the headphones
when back at thirteen
sat on the computer
i couldn't have known
the course of a future
spent longing too late
for longer than average
you're still in the frame
front of the narrative

I'll be listening to that song
When I die
An MP3 in the passenger seat
Of a long drive
Thinking of you
The slow duet
And your attic bed
when Jackson died
In June 09
Each note
And tone
Of
Your admission
That Falling in love
Isn't a choice
But being in love
its a decision
Or the grieving drone
Appealing the reason
That I'd die for you
But I wouldn't leave him


i couldn't know that there were things
concrete beyond seventeen
mostly you're my only purpose
the night fades too nothing
Track Name: Roses Are Blue
We cannot outrun
the length of the chain
more than a day
but if you're trying
well then you're trying
can't blame you for that
and the plea and the pain
still falling into focus
even today
but if you're trying
well then you're trying
can't blame you for that
though it wouldn't matter
but it might
but it might
we couldn't know
Track Name: HTML Hex #00bfff (Love Poem)
But In the end
When there wasn't an end
At all
And in the hot June nights
And Walking home from work
In December
I'll remember you
Like it's my job to.

And My mind
Image files
Angles of you over me and
Blocking the light
The exact hex code hue
Of your eyes
Turning
On your side
Just to look at me

In the dark
each time
I'm with or without you
The Inescapable low res
reel of the Loop
Playing out
The years
in which Id die for you
And I still would do

Even when
The great inelegant pass of time
Takes upon me
Unfavourably
Further from the day
We met
At the party
Or later
When you couldn't have seen me
Coming around the corner
Calling you
In Fleeting
All the times we met
Or were meeting
things that are
And aren't
Worth keeping
each year a layer
Through which it's burning

In the grand scheme
Of eternity
To which me
And my love
Keep returning